March 17, 2008

Some of my Poems

Sometimes I get in the mood to write poems...go figure. Anyway, these are a few of my favorite ones from the past year or so. I've been trying to experiment with some new techniques...or sometimes I just write what I feel. Let me know what you think, or just enjoy!

Only in my Dreams
I see you, know you, feel you
But nothing is as it seems
We can conquer the world together
If only in my dreams
I walk with you, talk with you
You haunt my every sleep
With thoughts and old memories
And the piece of my heart you keep
It all feels so empty
A darkness that light cannot break
I see nothing but feel everything
And in a cold sweat I awake
For only in my dreams
You are here with me
If only I could open my eyes
To find my dreams a reality.

Learning to let go
I know it can be called pathetic
Holding onto you the way I do
But some things are hard to let go of
When noone knew me as well as you.
Sometimes I try not to think of you
Sometimes I try to forget
But I know the harder I try
The more I will regret.
Regret our little adventures
Regret the times we shared
But I don't regret you at all
I regret how much I cared.
Remember the pictures we took?
I've taken them off the wall
The memories make me ache inside
For we thought we had it all
Time does interesting things to people
They move on, grow apart
But no matter how much time goes by
You'll always be in my heart.
For you see, I have built this wall
Designed to keep you away
But pieces of you got built in too
So you are with me everyday.
You can call me pathetic
It's a fact I already know
And it is harder than I ever thought
But I am learning to let go.

I think of you
No matter the day,
The time,
The place,
I think about you.
Your name could be in the whisper of the wind,
On the sidewalk,
In the clouds,
I think about you.
Your face is in my mind,
My dreams,
My heart,
I think about you.
When I remember the memories,
The laughs,
The tears,
I think about you.
When you feel discouraged,
Frustrated,
Alone,
I think about you.
You are in my prayers,
My actions,
My thoughts,
I think about you.
What carries me through the days,
The weeks,
The months,
Are thoughts of you.

The Art of Breaking
I see your picture on the wall
And seeing it makes me fall
Fall into pieces of us
Pieces I can't seem to pick up
I have never been one for art
But I am perfecting the art of breaking
Breaking down memories of us
Memories I can't seem to let up
Time changed everything from when we met
I hope we don't forget
Don't forget the friendship of us
Friendship I can't seem to give up
I have never been one for art
But I am perfecting the art of breaking
Breaking down the memories
Breaking without you here with me
Breaking my heart as it runs away with my mind
Breaking the more from you I find
Sometimes it is easy to fall
Fall into memories of us
Sometimes it is easy to forget
I hope you don't forget
Until then I will perfect the art of breaking.

March 16, 2008

Conformist...that's me!

I'm a little new at this blog thing...ok, really new at it. But I was told that it would be a good idea to start one and so I jumped on the band wagon and did it. I know, I'm a conformer.

My life is really not that interesting, but of course there are some things that some people like to be informed about. To begin with, I am not dating anyone. That means that come May, when my sister Andrea gets married, I will be the only single child left in my family. And honestly, I am completely fine with that!

Right now I am in the last part of my student teaching at Thatcher Middle School and I graduate from NAU in May! I passed my Arizona Educators Proficiency Assessment tests, which means that I can become a qualified teacher once I have my diploma. Hallelujah! Now I just have to decide where I want to teach.

That is just a quick update on my life. Don't worry, I'll go into more depth in future postings.