LOOK! It's new!

So it takes me a long time to get things done...like Blogging. I figured it was time for a new post. It was time for a new one a long time ago! Wow, a lot has happened. I GRADUATED FROM NAU! That's right, I now have my Bachelor's degree! I have been offered a job teaching 5th grade Language Arts in Thatcher and I accepted it. I just can't seem to get away from that amazing place.

For the summer I am nannying in Scottsdale. This is my 4th summer with the same family and I love it! The kids are so funny some times and I'm learning that they will always surprise you with funny little things. I have really come to appreciate these kids and the extreme amount of personality each one has.

This summer has definately been different, not only in the things I do but also with my emotions as well. It has been such a busy summer! Not only did I graduate at the beginning of the summer, but I am taking a couple online classes this summer too. A group of friends from school came to Lake Havasu with me and we played on the lake and in the desert for a week, which was so much fun! And then my sister, Andrea, got married on the same day that one of my closest friends from high school got married...so it was an insane day of weddings! Plus I had my sister's reception in Lake Havasu, so that was another trip. I also had my interview in Thatcher. My mom and sister just bought a new house in Queen Creek, so I spent quite a bit of time helping them paint too. So let's just say that there is never a dull moment. I am very blessed to have amazing friends that come to visit me and who are around the valley for the summer. Sometimes I wonder why I am doing certain things in my life and they are always around to let me know how important I am and that means the world to me.

Now that Andrea is married, this makes me the last child in the family to be single. And trust me, I've heard a lot about it already from my family. Kind of makes me mad. Supposedly I'm getting old and need help to find a man to marry. But I still have time! I am still young! So what if I don't go out on many dates. I honestly don't think I am ready to be married and people need to realize that this is my life and it will happen when the time is right. It frustrates me when people talk to me like I need to get married now and why am I not dating anyone and we should find someone for you to date...makes me feel like something is wrong with me. Nothing is wrong with me!

So anyway, I am going to be better at this Blogging thing. I am, I promise.

Tagged

Thanks Becca!
7 weird or random facts about myself.
1. I can't stand to have my knees touched, it is the only thing that makes me claustrophobic. I've had people think that they are helping me by holding me down and grabbing my knees...it doesn't help, it just makes me stop breathing or hyperventalate.
2. I HATE cupboards and drawers being open! Drives me insane! I have to go and close them if I see them open.
3. I have to be cold when I sleep or forget it. If it is too warm then I start feeling sick and I toss and turn all night.
4. I am afraid of falling, in every sense of the word...except for falling asleep (I do that one just fine).
5. When I sleep I have to have my door open about a foot, no more no less.
6. I have big earlobes...no joke! Compared to other people my earlobes are pretty big. I can fit almost 3 fingers from my earring to the opening in my ear...and my fingers aren't small. In fact, one of my best friends has nicknamed me Lobey.
7. When I concentrate really hard on something I tend to stick my tongue out. Not many people at college caught it but for some reason all the people I grew up with catch it every time!
I am so weird, I know.
So now I tag you! Callie, Diana, Chachi, and Kasi
1. On your post, link back to the person who tagged you - that would be me, in this case.
2. Post your assignment on your blog - seven weird or random facts.
3. Post these rules on your blog.
4. Post links to the bloggers that you will be tagging.
5. Go to those blogs and give them a comment on their blog to let them know that you have tagged them.

Some of my Poems

Sometimes I get in the mood to write poems...go figure. Anyway, these are a few of my favorite ones from the past year or so. I've been trying to experiment with some new techniques...or sometimes I just write what I feel. Let me know what you think, or just enjoy!

Only in my Dreams
I see you, know you, feel you
But nothing is as it seems
We can conquer the world together
If only in my dreams
I walk with you, talk with you
You haunt my every sleep
With thoughts and old memories
And the piece of my heart you keep
It all feels so empty
A darkness that light cannot break
I see nothing but feel everything
And in a cold sweat I awake
For only in my dreams
You are here with me
If only I could open my eyes
To find my dreams a reality.

Learning to let go
I know it can be called pathetic
Holding onto you the way I do
But some things are hard to let go of
When noone knew me as well as you.
Sometimes I try not to think of you
Sometimes I try to forget
But I know the harder I try
The more I will regret.
Regret our little adventures
Regret the times we shared
But I don't regret you at all
I regret how much I cared.
Remember the pictures we took?
I've taken them off the wall
The memories make me ache inside
For we thought we had it all
Time does interesting things to people
They move on, grow apart
But no matter how much time goes by
You'll always be in my heart.
For you see, I have built this wall
Designed to keep you away
But pieces of you got built in too
So you are with me everyday.
You can call me pathetic
It's a fact I already know
And it is harder than I ever thought
But I am learning to let go.

I think of you
No matter the day,
The time,
The place,
I think about you.
Your name could be in the whisper of the wind,
On the sidewalk,
In the clouds,
I think about you.
Your face is in my mind,
My dreams,
My heart,
I think about you.
When I remember the memories,
The laughs,
The tears,
I think about you.
When you feel discouraged,
Frustrated,
Alone,
I think about you.
You are in my prayers,
My actions,
My thoughts,
I think about you.
What carries me through the days,
The weeks,
The months,
Are thoughts of you.

The Art of Breaking
I see your picture on the wall
And seeing it makes me fall
Fall into pieces of us
Pieces I can't seem to pick up
I have never been one for art
But I am perfecting the art of breaking
Breaking down memories of us
Memories I can't seem to let up
Time changed everything from when we met
I hope we don't forget
Don't forget the friendship of us
Friendship I can't seem to give up
I have never been one for art
But I am perfecting the art of breaking
Breaking down the memories
Breaking without you here with me
Breaking my heart as it runs away with my mind
Breaking the more from you I find
Sometimes it is easy to fall
Fall into memories of us
Sometimes it is easy to forget
I hope you don't forget
Until then I will perfect the art of breaking.

Conformist...that's me!

I'm a little new at this blog thing...ok, really new at it. But I was told that it would be a good idea to start one and so I jumped on the band wagon and did it. I know, I'm a conformer.

My life is really not that interesting, but of course there are some things that some people like to be informed about. To begin with, I am not dating anyone. That means that come May, when my sister Andrea gets married, I will be the only single child left in my family. And honestly, I am completely fine with that!

Right now I am in the last part of my student teaching at Thatcher Middle School and I graduate from NAU in May! I passed my Arizona Educators Proficiency Assessment tests, which means that I can become a qualified teacher once I have my diploma. Hallelujah! Now I just have to decide where I want to teach.

That is just a quick update on my life. Don't worry, I'll go into more depth in future postings.